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Clarity

by The Shy Retirer

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Exist (free) 02:38
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Am I someone broken? I'm not so sure these days People keep on hoping That I will soon be ok They say that they're worried They say that they're afraid Of what I'm turning into Something grotesque that they hate I'm turning away my own mother I'm shutting out all my lovers I'm hiding under my old covers Screaming inside as I shudder I'm turning away my own mother I'm shutting out all my lovers I'm hiding under my old covers Screaming inside as I shudder Am I progressing? Or am I regressing? My future actions Left to educated guessing I'm at the tipping point Due to past lives owned I find myself running away Hurting everyone I've known I'm turning away my own mother I'm shutting out all my lovers I'm hiding under my old covers Screaming inside as I shudder I'm turning away my own mother I'm shutting out all my lovers I'm hiding under my old covers Screaming inside as I shudder I'll return to the ones that spurned As they yearn to let me burn --- I'm drinking alone and I'm sleeping alone tonight But it's alright with me I've gotten used to this It's commonplace for me to be here with no one else here I could call up my friends to try to talk to them But I know truly most of them don't care about me So I'll just fall asleep with some bourbon I bought for cheap Dreaming for the answers to the questions of my realities I'm drinking alone as I'm sinking alone Then I flee to my home where I'm sleeping alone
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Blacklist (free) 03:48
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Aerial Skydive 1992 (free) 07:21
I came into this world with nothing, but an umbilical cord Delicately caressed and embraced by the affection it could afford My cord and wings were clipped from the hatch As I was groomed to hold on close and latch But I know I was destined to soar Away from this life tied to the floor I will be an angel From as much as I've been shown, Our purpose isn't set in stone So I'll rise above the tide Taking flight towards the lights when I glide Away from a life tied to the floor, I swore I was destined to soar Yet when I ascend and fly around, I bend my wings then hit the ground I won't be an angel No, I will be an angel.
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Fair & Lovely (free) 05:45
I am dirty and ashamed Of this gross husk that makes me feel so strange In this life, I don't believe I can win Without being a near faultless model 10 These impurities gnaw at my shook skin Poison for help to make myself look thin And I'll do what it takes to appear clean above all else I just want to be fully satisfied with my goddamned self Everyday I wish to be fair & lovely I want all of the boys and girls to notice and love me Picture perfect in state and shape, I want to be an idol they don't constantly berate Why be a size 8 when I should be a size 4? I need to be a suitable size to get the looks to be adored Longing to not be glanced at when walking in a store Longing to not be often called a fat and ugly whore People say I'm fine the way I am But they don't know the stress to really understand Having to adhere to a standard Instilled ages ago for the ages to go Everyday I wish to be fair & lovely I want all of the boys and girls to notice and love me Picture perfect in state and shape, I want to be an idol they don't constantly berate Everyday I wish to be fair & lovely I want all of the boys and girls to notice and love me Picture perfect in state and shape, I want to be an idol they don't constantly berate I'm doing so much only to gain so little What's the point if it makes me even more brittle? Beneath the surface, above, and about, I'm not about to let them keep wearing me out Come to think about it, Maybe they weren't going to like me anyway Come to think about it, Maybe I'm actually alright and ok Come to think about it, Maybe they weren't going to like me anyway Come to think about it, Maybe I'm actually alright and ok I'm ok.
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Am I finally free? Can I at present be me? With my upward identity Am I valued entity? Acting and striking out on my own volition, Selfless or selfish, I merely listen to my intuition Gradually as I come out of my shell, I contemplate if the actions I do ever mean well I've lost sleep many nights Fighting with myself over who I want to be Wondering if people I see will like or judge me Wondering if I could just accept and love me At last, I'm becoming genuinely what I've always wanted Since in the past, My growth's continually faltered and stunted Decidedly, I'll cut loose what's needed to make concessions Yet I'll proceed, With astute and thus heeded discretion This time, I will not succumb to a breakdown and fold As I'll find, A chance to not run, but regain control
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Born Again (free) 04:11
I'm doing better now than I was once before Not sulking in my sorrows much lately anymore I've learned to take my head from underneath the sand Now that I'm a new man, born again I still have issues needing to be figured out But I won't let such issues cloud me I know I'll resolve them soon, I know I'll resolve them soon Be it, quiet or loudly I'm on the come-up Now, I'm vigilant with a plan And I'll strive to make my stand Yelling throughout this land That I am born again Now, I'm vigilant with a plan And I'll strive to make my stand Yelling throughout this land That I am born again Go tell all your friends I am born again You will see They will see Now, I'm vigilant with a plan And I'll strive to make my stand Yelling throughout this land That I am born again Now, I'm vigilant with a plan And I'll strive to make my stand Yelling throughout this land That I am born again
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Trails (free) 04:20

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